This isn’t my typical blog post. I honestly took forever to write this and post it because this is more personal than I usually get on my photography blog, but I just know I need to share this. I know there is someone who needs some encouragement and some hope right now!
I met Marc and Megan about 3 years ago when I photographed their family of three. At that session, I thought they were the “normal” little family. I thought they had their first baby without a hitch. However, Marc and Megan tried for over a year to have a healthy baby. After one heartbreaking miscarriage and a trip to a fertility specialist for testing, they got pregnant with Emery. She is such a sweet little girl and so very healthy and happy! Marc and Megan were thrilled to have a child of their own, but wanted to grow their family. Megan got pregnant right away, but unfortunately miscarried at 10 weeks. They continued to have 2 more miscarriages. I've never been through that heartache and cannot even imagine what it must feel like! They went through a battery of testing and never had an answer for why they miscarried so many babies. After the last miscarriage, they tried for 7 months before they were blessed with another healthy, sticky baby! Little Eli is so precious and so very loved! We may never know why Marc and Megan had to go through such heartbreak to grow their family, but I do know that God was with them every step of the way! He has a plan and he knows how to use it for good! His word says that he will bring us through the storms or deep waters (Isaiah 43:2) and that He definitely did! He created these two sweet rainbow babies for Marc and Megan and He has a perfect plan in store for their lives!
Right after moving to Kansas, I decided to quit doing newborn sessions in Colorado. They take a lot of props and preparation, and it was just too much to travel and do that type of session. However, when Megan contacted me about doing newborn photos for them when they had their second baby in April of this year, I felt something in me that said I needed to do it. I love how the Holy Spirit puts little nudges there for us, and what an amazing thing it is when we listen to that still small voice. You see, when I first met Marc and Megan, I had no clue about their struggle. I had no clue about the struggle my husband and I were about to embark on at that time either. Colton and I had just made the decision to start a family in April of that year that I photographed Marc and Megan for the first time. I was so excited and hoped that we’d be that couple that got pregnant in the first month of trying. But here we are three years later and the only baby we have so far is our sweet furbaby. I am not writing this for sympathy so please don’t feel sorry for us. I am writing this in hopes that if there is anyone else struggling to get pregnant or suffering from miscarriages, that they will see Marc and Megan’s story and be encouraged!
After three years of trying to start a family, I have learned a lot, but one main thing I’ve learned is that people sharing their stories, and seeing those same people with babies now is what helps the most. God works in such amazing ways! If I would not have listened to the Holy Spirit’s voice that evening as I was messaging Megan back, I would not have had a clue about their story and I would’ve missed out on all the hope and encouragement from hearing it and seeing them! Through three years of infertility, I have gone through several phases. I’ve been sad, bitter, mad and hopeless. But I have also been so joyful and completely at peace. I have learned so much about myself, God and my husband that I would have missed if I/we had gotten pregnant on the first try. I have lost friends and gained new ones. Most of all, I know that God has a plan and His timing is absolutely perfect. God brought Marc and Megan through the dark days and into parenthood, so I have no doubt that He will do the same for Colton and I and for any other couple who is waiting right now! He loves us and He knows what is best for us.
Thank you, Marc and Megan, for sharing your story and for being such encouragement! Also, thank you for asking me to photograph your adorable family!! Can’t wait to meet all your babies in Heaven too one day!
I will be sharing more about Colton and I's journey in the future. For the time being, we would love prayers and hearing similar stories to the one I just told, but please keep the advice to a minimum. We have had some testing and made some changes to our diets, but are currently focusing more on enjoying where God has us for the time being. We know that God has put us in this season of waiting for a reason so we are being patient, trusting Him and being content with our already so full and blessed lives.
If you or anyone you know is dealing with pregnancy loss or infertility, I am an open book! I want to encourage and be there for anyone who needs someone to talk to! I would also love to pray for you! Email or message me on Facebook!